Good morning world.
Lots of things have changed since my goddaughter was born last summer, I have found myself making better decisions based on how how Della would perceive them in her life. I've found myself thinking more about the things she needs than of my needs I need to meet.
On May 11th was her nine month birthday, and I knew that I was in love. I started thinking about adopting her when she was about five years old because I truly was meant to be a mother figure. Though my mother told me that it would be a bad choice knowing her birth mother's bad choices of substance abuse and the other harmful things she's done, but I do believe that every situation has a loophole. Della, will have an amazing life; with me giving her three things that I know my mother also have me growing up: a safe home, someone to tell her that she is loved every day and someone who would believe in and fight for her. I truly believe that I can exemplify the vows I am presenting to her, and do them better than I thought I'd be able to do.
Little to my knowledge did I know that her birth mother may have passed on certain infections to her child, however I will make sure those infections and medical mishaps will be taken care of regularly so she can have the life she truly deserves. Whether she ends up being sick all the time and suffering a great deal, or she'll be perfectly fine.. I will definitely fight for her. That's something any mother would do for her son or daughter, and I will for Della. If her fate means that she becomes a survivor, then I am also a survivor because of her; and if her fate means being sick... I will be strong for her. She is my pride each and every day and I am always going to be grateful for the gift God had given me.
I believe that she will be a happy girl for the rest of her beautiful life. And I'm going to make sure of that. Each mother wants what's best for her children and that's exactly what I want for her. I'm going to be that cool mom who wants to provide endless hours and days full of happiness and support through her unhappy moments. When she feels down, I will make sure to cheer her up and tell her everything is going to be okay. When she's overcoming obstacles in her life, I will be proud of her, whether it's her first day of school, her first prom, her first kiss, her first love even the days she gets married and has a child or two of her own.. I will be proud of her every single moment.
